“Stand and Fall” Poem

It’s the strangest thing to feel your heart stop beating

Even just a pause
For just a moment
Before you tilt forward with your toes gripping the edge

But you’re already falling
Or you’ve been falling
And the passage of time is sluggish and disorienting

You don’t know when
You don’t know why
And there’s nothing to catch you as far as you can see

No ground below you
No walls around you
Just air or water or darkness or tears or blood or shadow

You’re falling in
You’re drowning in
You stand there on the edge and you fall in unison

Perpetual suspension
Perpetual motion
And then a beat echoes through the nothing and everything

And though you stand
And though you fall
Life goes on again with the beat of a heart

“Scream” Poem

The fabric of the world
Strains and stretches,
Torn apart at the seams.

The threads snap… snap… snap,
Leaving rents across the sky.
And the world screams.

Snap. Scream. Snap. Scream.

Fire curls around each tear,
Carving out the jagged scars,
Blazing light through darkness.

Flaming bolts strike… strike… strike.
The burning and ripping hurts,
And the pain worsens the mess.

Strike. Scream. Strike. Scream.

Stars fall loosed from the night,
A deluge of broken diamonds
Cried in countless cold droplets.

The wind heaves a sob… sob… sob
The tears flow to floods –
A storm the world cannot forget.

Sob. Scream. Sob. Scream.

Snap. Strike. Sob.


“A Word Spoken” :: 642 Things to Write About

In an effort to write more frequent blog posts, I drew a prompt from “642 Things to Write About” by the San Francisco Writer’s Grotto, which I highly recommend. It quickly became a short poem instead of the longer flash piece I expected. Please enjoy.

A word spoken, a secret kept.

A match lit, a light goes out.

An egg boiled, a bird takes flight.

A dime lost, a lottery won.

A child cries, an old man smiles.

A breath gasped, a person shot.

A hearth kindles; a bomb explodes.

A bus brakes; a plane crashes.

A flag waves; a war sparks.

A pin drops; the sky falls.

In just a second,

The world changes.

Actions are taken.

Lives are begun,

Lives are ended.

In just a second…

A word is spoken.

“Guidance, Worship, & Celebration” Haiku Series

The last three spiritual disciplines were discussed as our internship winds down. To be honest, the poems haven’t been as easily inspired as they were when we began. I am becoming very tired. Still, I strive to be creative, even in a study time. Hopefully everyone will enjoy them.

Sharing your vision
Allows critiques to refine
To the best results

Seek out counseling
The guidance can clarify
Every clouded thought

Wisdom from others
Will outweigh our own judgement,
Our own biased mind

Understand their heart
Before giving food for thought,
Empathize with them

Spirit to spirit
Worship draws near the divine
Holy of holies

Bring our whole being
Beyond the mental limit
Thrown into worship

Celebrate living
Find strength in the joy of action
Free, alive, happy

Dance, learn to laugh more,
Don’t lose imagination,
Party all night long

Copyright Renee Rhodes July 21, 2013

“Service and Confession” Haiku Series

Covered in discussion by both Lauren and Lisa, these two disciplines resulted in a lot of conversation. I think most of the group is amused that, instead of taking notes, I write haikus. Same, same, but different, right? Basically.

No point standing back
When there is need for service,
We must step forward

More than to receive,
Passing joy out to others
Grows our own spirit

It is not selfish
Though it’s a blessing to all
It is for others

Genuine regret
A burning desire to share
Heavy on our hearts

Pain is pain to all
But confessing won’t feel safe
When mouths don’t stay shut

Share what’s on your mind
Comes along with trust

Guilt loses power
The instant it is confessed
Be brave and speak up

Copyright Renee Rhodes July 7, 2013

“Simplicity, Solitude, and Submission” Haiku Series

The next installment of my spiritual discipline haiku series. I have had a harder time comprehending and connecting to these specific disciplines and so there are fewer inspired poems. Led by Meredith, Mama Zone, and Julia, these discussions help us grow as interns while we daily strive to serve.

Reach simplicity
Stripping the material
To truth underneath

Stop the busyness
Open an ear to listen
To the silence ring

When we are alone
We are never abandoned
Or truly alone

Forgive my mistakes
Justice will come to us all
It is not our place

Escape self-pity
Deny oneself, refuse faults
Create your freedom

Far more rewarding
Are inward alterations
Than outer changes

Copyright Renee Rhodes July 3, 2013

“Fasting and Study” Haiku Series

Inspired by the equipping lessons at my summer internship. These discussions were led by Emily and Mahya respectively. I just can’t help writing about some of the awesome topics we discuss. Still, I apologize for the haiku spam:

After our hunger
Satisfy our ev’ry need
Let us break our fast

Emotions surface
Our personal weaknesses
Flaws for us to fix

I need not my wants
I want instead your desires
Fill me up inside

Just, pure, true, beauty
Knowledge to set mankind free
Only through study

When we lack the truth
We lack the other virtues
That apply to life

Simply beautiful
Marvel at the little things
Value small wonders

Copyright Renee Rhodes June 13, 2013